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Tuesday, 09 February 2010

Orientation

It has been awesome from the preparation to mg week till now. Will make a proper post next time, but until then it has been a long journey and it's been really fun but tiring. But one thing i failed to realise until today was that God was always good during the course of orientation and He always is. And it slipped my mind till today when daryl, tricia and i cabbed back from school and we were talking about how we got S07 to gel together so well today, and one of the main reasons was because of prayer. I guess sometimes we underestimate the power of prayer and i forget that by human strength alone we can do nothing, but we can accomplish all things through Christ who strengthens us amen! So for the remaining two days of orientation, ima give it my all for my og, treasure the last two days with Babylon :'( and commit in the trusty hands of my Lord :)

Saturday, 23 January 2010

Wish i didn't need sleep

It's 2am now, but i feel the need to blog cause i feel so burdened now. I mean how do you get everything done with enough rest for the next day? Hardly. And when there's compromise, some things are bound not to be done up to standard, and i don't just mean academically.
Also, i have this problem that prevents me from getting enough rest, that is, i always spend time thinking about stuff late at night, and overthinking sometimes leads to worrying. But then it would come to a conclusion, i think about God. I always wished there was someone who would continuously encourage me cause encouragement easily lightens my burdens. People do, but sometimes people disappoint, and people hate disappointments too. But God doesn't disappoint.
Today was spent in school practising our dance steps for our opening clan performance. Had an awesome time hanging out with awesome people in our awesome clan. They're really a cool bunch of people. Then when we were about to leave, we were held back athens cause they asked to join them in mass dance. So we did and we had mass-ive fun heh. Lunch with babylon, tuition at g2, fastforward to david's birthday dinner. We went to this German Bar & Restaurant at vivo called Brotzeit, serves damn good sausages and beer, and according to kenneth, it came about cause of Oktoberfest. Cool much. Okay la it was my first time drinking beer cause there's only wine at family functions. Anyway it was damn cool, they were teaching me all about beer and alcohol, like what vodka and stout has the most alcohol and lager has the least, something along that line. But i learnt alot and anyway i don't really like drinking much but it's good to know and it was fun hearing all the stories. (Y)
I don't know how to cope with enough rest man. There's school, orientation, i have to find bio&chem tuition, church, which now includes preparing for cell lessons and going for cm cell for input, and cell has brought about many changes and has become complicated than ever. Going on, there's team r-age, which reminds me there's a match tomorrow. And i haven't played soccer in more than a month and my fitness has gone downnnn. We're playing against some of ian's army friends who are officers so they should be pretty fit, but their team's called Genetically Altered Youth FC aka GAY FC. Hahaha, hilarious right? Then there's still our JC Ambassador's Club. I'm so happy that we started it last week and i hope we can do this consistently and reach the unsaved in our school together. CNY cum Valentine's Day is coming so we're like planning to prepare something for the class. Then there's maintaining social life and relationships with other people, which i feel is pretty important in being involved in other people's lives other than yourself and building each other up as we face trials together. But currently there seems to be no time catching up or asking each other eh how's your week and such. Sucks to be me. It's such a big leap from J1 to J2 and i'm trying to hang on. People tell me i look fine and strongly coping along, but everyday i have to remind myself of this aspect and that aspect that has to be done which stresses me out. And mostly, school plays a big part of it all.
Sigh, so many aspects, i wish i could say no to some. Like team r-age, i think i'll be taking a break till A's in maybe say april, and before that maybe come only twice a month, as it takes up my sundays. How to study? :((( I'm gonna try giving it my all, and in everything glorify God. But must remember not to be distracted with too much service that i neglect my relationship with God. Lord please lighten my BIG BIG BIG burdens. Rain down on me.

Friday, 08 January 2010

Thankful

I haven't got a chance to reflect back on 2009 and look ahead towards 2010. But now that school's starting in 2 days, better late than never.
Suddenly, the start of last year feels so far away from now, like so many things have happened and changed in the span of just one year. I remember getting back my horrid o level results like together as a class and running everywhere and consulting everyone on where should i go, asking God to illuminate me on His plans for me. Most stressful and lowest point of my life last year, so stressful and busy while i could've been sitting back and relaxing. Nevertheless after failing to enter ac or cj, God directed me to PJ.
I still remembered the first day of school when us fairsians just turned pigeons (PJians) walked in school tgt. I thought of what God had in stored for me, cause like it was completely different from what i expected, and honestly things didn't really get better even when i sorta settled down in my new class. People were so different from 4D, cause once you had the best you can't really compare anymore. I thank God for people who patiently stood by my side to hear my worries, doubts and rantings.
Now i look back, and i think, wow God, thank You for placing such wonderful people in my life, and your plan in which you laid out for me, isn't it just wonderful and exciting. How the joy of the Lord could turn my mourning into dancing. I can never really fathom.
Deciding to open up my mind, i accepted my class for who they are and i've actually had some moments which i enjoyed hanging out with them, and i know God has placed me there for a purpose. Got to know many many cool people, from orientation, chinese class, choir, interactclub(haha), going to Amanda's church, taxi rides, OP exam, IHG (finding out PJ soccer team would be damn good only if we had one!), cambodia and recently OGL Camp! Okay that was this year. And got to know the old ones better. And also many people from church from church retreat, Rhema conference and Leader's retreat.
In addition, I've treasured every single 4D outing or chalet this year, though i couldn't make it for the recent one. So good to see them each time and it's really amazing that we're still so closely knit together.
Seasons have changed, seasons will change, but God will still remain good in season or out of season. He rescued me out of misery and assured me of my doubts, esp in myself and in my studies when i was doing badly. I still got promoted by His grace. I'm just so humbled of how the way God saw me through last year, He's put me through many obstacles, blessed me with so much and i can only see that there's more to come this year. I won't have to go through hardships and horrid A levels alone. The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few, but i know i won't be sowing alone. Trusting in God for what's in stored for school, cell, church, socially, academically, spiritually and in all other aspects. YNWA.
BABIESSSSSSS♥

OGL Camp was great and so was BABYLON! So the day before the camp, i went to meet pearlyn, mingjie and tayye for tennis and studying, and we thrashed out our fears and worries for the camp ahead of us especially the clans that we're in. But we really enjoyed ourselves in the end didn't we. I miss my clan now, like suffering from camp withdrawal symptom! They're such an amazing, united, efficient and concerned bunch of people. Haha and i was a virgin at eating with bare hands till yesterday at lunch! Yeap the whole group decided to spare the spoon and forks for once hahaha.

Saturday, 02 January 2010

The New Year

Whatup! So the first day of the new year was spent with churchmates at Leader's Retreat @ Salvation Army. It was the most well-spent new year ever! We checked in on the 31st, sat in corn's car on the way for some 'special' (haha according to pastor ronald) dinner at teck whye, and walked all the way to G2 for watchnight, took alot of videos! & as a whole, leader's retreat was great fun! Made more friends, getting to know the old ones better, laughing with friends, meeting the new people in the region, great accomodation, singing out of tune, playing bridge, playing asshole daidee, teaching bridge, playing more bridge, sleeping at 6am! Awesome!